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Yeah, not blogging for bout 1 week already... Hahaha... How are u guys? Hmmm, now super busy... Now gonna clean the CO room... FO camp and prac hard liao... Sian.. Hoping to start school, but things seem bit stress... Hahaha... Hopfully i can do well... Till now, i havent talk to much peop in my class... More of those 自我封闭... Good or bad i don know.. But at least i am doing what i am suppose to do...

Projects and projects... Yawnzzz... so much things to do... Hahaha... Been 2 weeks since i get a good night sleep.. But luckily, i am self disipline enough that whenever i feel like skipping lesson, i didnt... I still die die force myself to go... As i said, this is a new sem, theres no reason for me to skip... I;m not sick nor anything, just lack of sleep... So i am gonna do well for my exams and also manage the CO well :) Everything gonna be fine...

2 Weeks consecutively didnt sleep well.. Everyday stay in school till either 10 or almost 10 then go home... AHahaha... peop say i siao On but i guess its a good start... Now, must also pia academically... Cant only pioritise in CO... Heheh, what most important is that i really feel like home in SPCO... You guys rocks... Just like my family members liao:) heheheh This is all for today first... later going out for steamboat... Hehehehh yeah....

忙

Yeah guys, sorry that havent been updating for quite sometimes :) Was busy with the recruitment... Now gonna be busy about the cleaniness and the FO camp... Very busy...
What am i gonna say? Hmmm... Should talk bout the recruitment.
The recruitment's respond wasnt good... Most of them either don know what is Chinese Orchestra or just don wanna join... Some walked pass us and even laught... I wasnt sure why was that... May be they just don know what is that? or they had joint in their sec school, but not interested now? We only managed to recruit 50++... But what if lots of them just leave CO? The tradition is that, CO can get lots people in recruitment, but only left with 10 +... This is the trend. No matter in which CO...

Now everything very pressing... Cleaning the club room, and getting the FO camp done.. Plus, I'm already pressurised by my studies... Sian... Just the end of week 1 and everything is just pressing me~

Hmmm... anyway, i believe i can get things done eh:) Got a team of committee... Heheheh... Most of them are enthu, so i am thankful that i have such a great team... Hope everything will be done nicely... SPCO gonna grow again... yeah~

Now as for other things, i would say no time liao... Hahahahaa... Even bodybuilding also... Bit too pressed.... sian... when will I ever go build again? hahaa... And also, though I wanna build, i also wanna eat... Best interest is eat... Old Airport Road... that market alot of nice food... Heheheh Guys, when we free, we go there eat:) Yeah

力

Hi guys....
Been rather high mood... Hehehh... But also kinda stress:)... Too much stuff to fulfil:), but will give in my best in everything eh~

SPCO
Now I see hope for it.. The committee are quite involved. Only a few are more of busy.. But I believe SPCO is also part of their life:) Though I'm suppose to lead the orchestra, but i believe I still have alot to learn... This will be the time when I'll fully focus in this orchestra... I will grow and learn along... Learn how to work with others... I've always been more of those who like to work alone... But its impossible for me now:) Hehehhe... And they are just a bunch of nice friends:) Yeah~ I hope the bonding will be even stronger....

This week is CCA week... This recruitment is crucial for SPCO... If the respond isnt good, i think it'll be the last year that SPCO will be under Mr Lee's baton : x.... So hope everything going smoothly... Heheheh...

There are actually a few aims... Just that currently I'm still not that confident.. I can only be confident when the number of actives members increased... To at least a 60 peop... But, at least now theres 2 confirm to join SPCO. ;p

Mr David also have quite high expectation... Or should I say as now we are taking over, so he wanna start as being more focus... But from what i see, he's kind of good to us:) Lucky bunch of kids we are.... Heheheh.... This the part which bit stress.

End of SPCO matters... Now is about school... Gosh. 1st day, programming liao... Graphic programming and java... Hahaha.... I need the book to remember the syntax.. But luckily my concept is more or less still there... As I said, i will work very hard in everything... Not only orchestra, also in studies.... Both are my piority... Now stress~~~

Gonna buy all the books if possible... Start studying on my own first:) Heheeh... Even if i cant score very well, at least try my best... All the best to me....

仓

风吹来, 打在脸上, 我既懒洋洋地起身了.突然觉得有点提不起劲.那吹来的风既然打断正在睡梦中的我.打断我与她存在的那一刻. 我突感到有些纳闷, 但又带点莫名其妙. 难道做个梦让我唤起那沉睡的记忆也不能吗? 顿时, 我感到彷徨与无助. 我成对她说过"不要但心会忧伤难过,也别害怕孤单寂寞. 只因我会一直在身边荷护着你". 但此时此刻感到忧伤难过的是我. 她忽然联络了我. 唤醒了我压抑感在深处里的感情. 那段我以为已经放下的恋情. 简简单单的一则简讯. 我好慌乱.. 虽已删掉她的联络号码, 但我从未忘记. 熟悉的号码已害我眼框里发出透亮的水珠. 是泪... 我还是强忍了. 我已答应自己不能在为她流泪. 白天的思念化成夜里的泪, 夜里的泪化成白天的醉. 过了不知多久的时间才渐渐振作起来. 时间能冲淡一切. 但过了良久,我只学会了逃避.

她曾答应过我但却没履行诺言. 最终还是离开了.我也为她的离开而沧桑了好一段时间.过得简直人不像人. 朋友都问值得吗. 但我只用微笑回应他们. 这微笑是我笑得最痛苦的. 它的意义只在于别担心我. 虽说当时的我偏体鳞伤,但我仍相信我能站起来... 我真的站起来了吗?

风停了. 它带来了悲伤. 回忆. 但并没把它带走. 她的离开已成了我这生中最大的遗憾. 不管怎样, 我都祝福她... 希望她过得比我快乐, 幸福. 我还是我. 愿把我所有的幸福都送给她. 只希望守护神时时刻刻都守护着她, 不让她受到任何伤害... 若真有伤害, 我愿承担一切...

祝你幸福的勇

疼

Headache~~~ Ouch... Did i eat too much chocolate? Hahaha... Been eating lots of chocolate.. So sweet~ Yeah man.... Hehehh... Be it snicker or Meiji's chocolate... But now head hurts...

Today gonna go school for a cca briefing.. Bit sian. Cause must all the way from Bedok go to Dover... Hahahh... But its ok la. Heheh:) Yeah...

School days coming soon.. Should I be happy or vex? :P I think its a good thing ba... Been really slacking too much. Time to start working hard. And also, i am looking forward to get my diploma.. An important piece of paper... Argh.. Just because of this piece of paper, i gonna spend times and thousands dollards of money...

Die die must do well.... Hehehh... Though just a piece of paper, its far too expensive... : x heheheh

Well, today a short one... Headache killing me... Gosh... Night all hehehhe~~

Woohoo~~ Been quite extreme... 2 days didnt sleep well.. Hahaha... Was awake whole night with my friend... Then went to Siong Leng and overnight again... Morning just go BBCO... Hahaha... Rreached home in the late afternoon... Sleep till night time, eat le then sleep again.. Hahahah..
Think this is how I sleep when i deprive of it:)

Yeah... Now gonna try my best to manage SPCO with my team of committee:) Hehehe... Though the current situation is very bad.. But will do my best... This break is ending also.. Gonna go back to school le.. Heheheh.. At least I wount be wasting my time....

I go sleeping soon.. Still not enough sleep... Heheh.. Thinking of Meeting Zhong Ming when i wake up.. Wanna try the food there... He said most of them are delicious... And had been there for more than decade:) 老字号... Must go there eat....

Hmmm~ Missing my group of friends in Changkat CC... Hahaha... Bit bad... I;m not helping with Boo's concert... But the songs there are old songs la.. So i think shouldnt be a prob to the peop.. Though I'm not performing, Jia You TCG... Hehehh...

Think that should be all for today ... Very tired... Good night all hehehh~

闷

This few days really very sian... School starting soon... Yawnzzz... Hahaha. No more slacking...
Very jia lat... Nothing for me to do... Stay at home slack or sleep till very late, wake up, eat le then sleep again.. Hahaha.... Wasted lots time...

Today, went to JinHui house play dizi... Went through some songs with him... Hahaha.. Now also pretty boring.. Eveynight is like torturing me... Cause now used to sleeping late.. Nothing to do.. I can use the word lonely... So lonely... Lonely night.. Boring night life.. Just try to pass the time faster and sleep... What is my aim now... I think is to get my Diploma first... Finish NS and work... Really hope to get into a local Uni... Heheh... pretty hard i think. Too slack liao...

Now Diploma is nothing. Everyone has it.. Degree also nothing. Majority have it.. Must go even further.. Am i able to do so? I need capital and determination... Now i lack the capital. Determination is only part of it.... Even if not a local Uni, i think a private one also can. Though the cert is not that recognised... Die die also must get it...

Life here is bad. High tax, low pay... Everything is expensive thus, must look even further and dare to dream even further... Geting a stable job is not enough... But be able to earn more... 2K is very little... Its only enough if I use it alone... But i will have to feed my family... 3K is barely ok only... But 2K is the average pay here... How to survive? Pretty stress here...

In the future, if the security in other countries is better. lower crime rates, i might consider emigration... Staying here is boring. No night life... Everything limited... Expensive also... And low pay.... sigh~~~

Anyone can liao kai my xim xiang??? Hahaha... This sem, i try my best to study... Got into Game Development... Now the modules seem pretty difficult... Artificial Intelligence... Hahahahhh... How to program it? And In this country, i don see any gaming industry... So will there be work for me in the future? Uncertainty... LOL~

Hack care la... Now just pia everything... Everything also do till the best... Be it Orchestra, academically or working... All just pia... Life is pretty boring if theres nothing to be acomplished... Heheh... Hope everything gonna be fine in the future:)

Yeah~
纳闷之夜

乱

良久没写了... Hahahah... So sian... Life bit sian now... Not working, no income, nothing much to do... A bit sian... Hahah... Thats holiday. Better faster get my diploma and work outside.. May be tough, but at least more or less got income...

Human = Born, grow up, eat, work, rest, old, die.... : x hahaha... Well, i am not suppose to be this pessimistic: x~ hahah:) Not really la actually... But been really slack... My brother Fook Yuen also forward module.. Meaning, 1 less brother in my class.... This really is a surprise to me... His result always can make it one... Just because of attendance...

Now should be the optimistic side...
Though now sian... But i had been around with my group of friends for sometimes... I realise the bonding not so strong... But least, its still there... Should be sad, but I'm happy instead... I thought I had been forgotten... But actually not... This made me realised one thing.. Though friends might not been contacting yer, but to them, u are always their friend...

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Talking bout SPCO...
Now also sian of SPCO liao la... Attendance so jia lat... Every week prac also sian. No effect when combining... And nothing much to play and fool around liao... Lots peop piority not there.. This one understandable... Standard of SPCO not really high.. But then i hope at least the attendance is nt that bad.. Some seniors also quit le... Sian... meaning less people liao..
Now no YinZhi, no Pei Cheng +++ Meaning less fun... Steven also graduate liao... Lay Leng now also graduate le and she's working le... Meaning all may come back lesser... Sian ar~~~

Hopefully this time the recruitment can recruit many people, enthu and also stay near Bedok one:) Supper every Wed : x Wahahaah
Now Erhu no people liao... Liu qing also no people liao... Meaning no effect.... Sian ar~~ Hahahah... Hopefully SPCO will not be closed....

Now life also kinda confused... Alot of things.. Lazy to list out... Hahaha... I just don know what i want... And what others want: x hahahah~~~

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Yeah... Holiday also ending soon... Gonna start a new Sem... This sem, i die die must pia... Since CO also sian liao, means i wont spend so much time one it... May be spend time on self- technique... : x hahaha... Meaning i die die must wake up every Thursday for school... No reason for me to lie to myself... Hahahaha... Must work hard.. Aim = University... Which one, i don know... But must see result also... May be my result also don allows me to go... But just do my best la....
Result is not the most important but process is.... Heheheh
Goodnight all:)